| I'm in Lake Tahoe on vacation.
I figured I was really bored so I might as well update.
I'm also sick. Which is why I didn't ski today which really pissed me off. So now I will only have 3 days of skiing all year under my belt. Cait from Seattle is here!! I'm really excited to get home so I can see her. She's staying with Michelle.
Also, I shall miss the nerd party, which is really disapointing.
It's amazing that I haven't updated since June and still I have nothing to say. |
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| NEW COMPUTER.
*new computer dance*
OMG.
Kick. Ass. |
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| Hi.
I love my bunny rabbit.
He's burly and adorable and his name is Thor.
I've had him since Februrary.
I love him muchly.
Sincerely,
A newly obsessed Micah. |
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| I look at xanga so much. Never update.
What the fuck.
Silent Hill made me scared. And that's an understatement.
That's so Raven is on. Michelle is c\hanging the channel. Yay.
I'm pretty dead inside right now. |
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| Oh man am I sick.
I was just looking at all of my old friend's xangas and it sucked me into a 3 hour timewarp back to before Greg and when I had just met Michelle.
I was so miserable and I didn't even know it. I was so afraid people disliking me for me that I created an exterior persona for them to hate instead. I acted unintelligent, outwardly weird strange over-bearing loud shallow mediocre. I was so pathetic.
I'm so glad for the people in my life now. I'm so glad that I'm me for the most part, I can express, I'm not afraid of what I used to be terrified of. It doesn't matter anymore. I have people in my life who love me genuinely and I love them genuinely back. Thank you.
I'm glad I'm out of that part of my life, with all the shit I had going on, I'm glad I survived and never completely lost myself for fear of someone discovering and disliking the real me.
Question for you: Do you even look back on how you outwardly acted in the past and just feel so embarassed or ashamed that you wish you could apologize to everyone who knew you then and doesn't know you now?
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